Upset

I really can tell that I gained some fat. Not only the scale. I'm not imagining, but I really can see it layering over my stomach and my legs. Oh Gawd. Why did I not eat healthily the past two weeks. Why. Why is it harder to resist food then before. I cannot let this happen. I can't let this continue. It's too upsetting.
I was almost seeing my abs. I was closing to a thigh gap. And now, it's all gone. I really have to start from the beginning again.

I have to lose some weight by the end of this week. I have to see a jumping progress. I have to.