Screw the crave!

I had been craving for carbo, like Bread, bun, kind of carbo, since the afternoon. I'm so glad, I manage to push it off:) After all the eating. Time to rest my body for about an hour or two. Then it's time for some intense workout today:)

Because I've been feeling very ugly, for the past days, ever since I went from 119 to 124. Which I really have no idea how it happened? I ate bread everyday, and tarts, and everything unhealthy , yes I didn't workout.. But, I measured and observed myself everyday. But one day it was just like, BOOM FIVE POUNDS UP. How the fuck did that happen?
But instead of beating myself up about it, as well do something about it. ( and of course don't let it happen again.) It's hard to feel beautiful when this happens, but, that's just how it is.

Thinking of posting a pic of my weight gain, to see the before and after 28 days. Hm, maybe.

Day 3 @56.1kg/ 123.4lbs

Lost a tinsy bit. But every tinsy bit counts. So I am glad. If everyday I would to lose this bit. The number at the end of the month would be great and satisfying :)

Intake
12noon- 1/2apple (40), grapes (50), Soy protein shake (95), seaweed (10), 15 almonds (105)
Breakfast= 300kcal

I'm sure yesterday's intake, was a lot, and maybe even some unaccounted for. But I guess the constant eating boosted my metabolic rate. And the excessive eating of seaweed, didn't do much harm- maybe its true that it holds no calories? Maybe.

What I've been doing when I'm hungry or feel like munching- I've been taking almonds, and wrapping them up, rolling them up with seaweed, and then I pop in to my mouth. Hehehe. It's such a satisfying snack. And actually quite filling! I know, almonds are high in fat, and quite high for 7kcal for an almond. But trust me, that 7kcal will make you ignore that muffin, or that bread, or that cake:)

My nose is better. Period, still not here.
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2.30pm- one eggwhite(17), one full egg scrambled(100), olive oil (30), Eggplant (50), 10 almonds (70), seaweed(10)
Lunch= 277kcal

Thus far= 577kcal

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4.30pm- 30 almonds(210), banana (90), Coffee with mate (40), seaweed (20), 1/2 apple(40), grapes(50)Snack= 450kcal
6.45pm- Grilled eggplant(70), sauce (50), Soup with cabbage and carrot (70)
Dinner= 190kcal

7.30pm- seaweed(10)

Thus far= 1227kcal

:) I'm happy with my intake.
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8pm- Blueberries (83)
8.45pm- Organic hazlenut coffee (93)
End of the day= 1403kcal

Work something out

Because of my flu, I'm not really feeling for cardio. My nose is so uncomfortable!

Workout
Ca2 (actually not really considered, since It was way too short and little)
Co1
C02
Co4
Co5
R4
R5
R3 (20 reps)

I know I said to do 10 a day. But I've gotta settle with barely 8.
I will punish myself, and gruel myself, after this flu, and passing fatigue.

Mann, I sound like such a lazy poop on my blog, who lacks discipline.

I want a Korean body.

I am not crazy about "Kpop-ness". But I'm sure I'm not the only to notice how TINY Koreans.. well, most Koreans are. I have a few Korean friends, I guess I could say, when I do eat with them.. most of the time, they do make weird interesting choices of food. Like those lotus soup, ginseng chicken, or something like that. Hahahah. And I noticed, they eat soooooooooooooooo slow. Like omg slow. And just when they are half way through their meal, they claim they are full. In my mind I'm just thinking 'You gotta be kidding me'. I just find it unbelievable. Or maybe I'm just a greedy pig. I notice that they are pretty healthy conscious, and are very bright and knowledgeable.

Few years back I watched a Korean drama. Goong/Princess Hours. Song Ji Hyo, plays as a ballerina there. I've always envied her body! (Actually I envy almost every Korean girl's body)

Name: 송지효 / Song Ji Hyo
Real name: 천성임 / Chun Sung Im (Cheon Seong Im)
Profession: Actress
Birthdate: 1981-Aug-15
Birthplace: South Korea
Height: 168cm
Weight: 46kg










Kinda found a lot of Korean height and weight stats, and the thing that bothers me a lot is that, they are always taller than me, and yet way lighter than me. I know that we can't compare bodies, but seriously. Some of them are like 10cm taller than me, and yet 10kg lighter than me. Wow, I don't wanna be standing next to any of them. Oh wait, I always do. Cause we attend the same school course. Thanks alot skinny taiwans and koreans! ( I actually do love you guys)

Day 2 @56.4kg/ 124.1lbs

So my weight didn't change. I pray to God, that it's just water weight. And that my period would just come already!

Intake
11am- Milk (80), 16 Almonds (112), grapes (50), 1/2 apple( 35), seaweed (10)
Breakfast = 287

I'm still having aches all around my body. Not muscle aches though.

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My constant eating, I can't exactly account for.

eggplant (250), egg(100), Whey Protein shake (210), Almonds (350), Apple(75), 1/2 apple (40), seaweed (100), Subway tuna sandwhich(530), Coffee with mate (40), Mark and Spencer candy (330), soy protein shake (103)

Total 2415kcal

so if it wasn't for the candy and the sandwhich, I would be down 1555. So maybe my weakness is that I don't know how to turn down food from people :(

My Brother bought for me the sub. So I ate it. I wasn't that hungry. But I ate it. I actually didn't know that the subway tuna sub was THAT unhealthy. Until I checked up on it, and found out it was a whopping 530kcal. How the hell? I mean isn't tuna healthy? Gawd.

And that candy was like this:
(While television time)
Daddy: Come , take take. Eat more. Your favorite. Eat more!
Me: Oh okay. *picks one and throw into my mouth* *takes the packet, and pick up another 5 more* *open an un-opened packet from the table, took another 3* -Until I saw that it was 58kcal per gummy.

I don't really have a excuse for my lack of self-discipline. And I skipped night class today. Cause I'm facing the fatigue. Damn you period!

I didn't really think I ate that much today. UNTIL NOW, where I actually calculated it. I feel like such a fat blob. Can this tough down period just end already?

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