Blog started since 16 March 2011
HW: 137lbs | LW: 114lbs | CW(Jan 29 2014): 120lbs | GW1: 110lbs | GW2: 99lbs
Height: 5' 4"
Age: 21 going on 22

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Curly hair / Perm hair / Wavy hair



































Why? Cause I permed my long straight hair. And it turned out disgusting. Biggest regret of my life. I didn't even regret quitting school. And God do I sound shallow. My hair is damn shit now, it's ugly and ruined and spoilt and dried and gross. Need all this to make me feel slightly better.

Weight update & depression

So 2 days ago was an extremely dark period. I almost killed myself. I was so close to stepping out of my bedroom window. I was so depressed that everything, every fucking thing in life just ends up the exact way that I prayed not to. As a christian I believe that if I commit suicide I would end up in hell. And as much shit as you are going through on earth, hell is not worth it. So I cried my guts out. I cried so loud, but since everyone else was sleeping, no one could hear me. I prayed to God that he would just take me to heaven already. Take my life away when I was sleeping, so I went to sleep. And when I woke up and realized I wasn't dead yet, I started crying even louder.

Enough about that, cause basically this is a body and weight obsessed blog. No one wants to listen to my thoughts of death and suicide or how depressed I am.

So, I lost weight. I'm 57.8kg now. I've not seen a "57" in quite a long time. Which makes me 127.2 in pounds. I just realized how pathetic I sound. Heh.
Yes I have been eating lesser, but I'm not sure if the weight loss is due to me taking the scissors and snipping my hair off. Sigh.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Quick Diary Entry/ Weight update

Good morning! So it's about 5am over here. Gonna make myself a cup of coffee. Work out before 6am until about 7am and get ready for church! It's kind of upsetting that I don't workout as usual as I used to a year, or even 2 years ago. Especially now that my sleeping time is pretty bad. For the past few months I've been sleeping at odd hours, like 7am, 10am, 3pm, 5pm, and wake up at around 10pm, midnight, and 3am. Eating timings are all over the place as well. It's hard to know how much I'm actually eating. I know this isn't healthy either.

Life has been such a blur.

I have been stagnant at 58.4kg/ 128.5lbs for a while now. It sure is time to be stricter with my diet and exercise. Need to find tons more motivation and inspiration!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Jung Ryeo-won






















Korean Thinspiration

I've always admired Jung Ryeo-won. I saw her for the first time while watching a korean drama "My Lovely Sam-soon". She has a great sense of fashion and a very petite body. I find her very charming too.

Here is what someone wrote about her on a forum: 

"i saw her in real life in korea and she was BEAUTIFUL. i thought she was merely pretty in TV, but in real life, i was blown away. i had no idea she was that lovely in person. and it wasn't just her looks. the way she was laughing and treating people (especially the old people), she just seemed to... (brace yourself for the cheesiness) SHINE. i knew that she wasn't just a pretty face. you could tell she was truly kind (i saw some other korean actresses in person and none of them really left an impression on me). she's the kind of girl that a guy could marry, and she would make that guy happy. ever since i saw her in person, i've actually grown obsessed with her."

There is something really special and magical about her.
  • Name: 정려원 / Jung Ryu Won (Jeong Ryeo Won)
  • Real name: 정여원 / Jung Yu Won (Jeong Yeo Won)
  • Nicknames: "Hot Dog" and "DaRamJue" (squirrel)
  • Profession: Actress, model and singer
  • Birthdate: 1981-Jan-21
  • Birthplace: Seoul, South Korea
  • Height: 168cm
  • Weight: 45kg


Here's a cute clip of her. Little snippet from "My Lovely Sam-soon" drama.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

About Amber Heard's weight loss/ How did she do it?

Q: How much weight did Amber Heard lose?
A: 25 pounds.

Q: How long did it take Amber Heard to lose the weight?
A: It took her four months


Q: How often are Amber Heard's workouts?
A: She had daily workouts.


Q: What is Amber Hear's diet like?(When she wants to lose weight)
A: She bans carbohydrates and alcohol.


Q: What is Amber Heard's diet like? (to maintain weight loss)
A: She avoids meat, eggs, diary products and processed sugar. She has a low fat and high fiber diet. She eats foods such as whole grains, soy products, vegetables, brown rice, millet, barley, rye. Vegetables makes up 30% of her daily food intake.


Q: What does Amber Heard like to eat?
A: She likes having 1-2 bowls of miso soup or shoyu soup


Q: What is Amber Heard's workout like?
A; She does cardio and some light weights. She goes jogging everyday. When she is very busy, she just tries to fit in running. "I personally run, just because that’s all, for me in time management, running seems to be the most time" She said.

Q: What does Amber Heard do to control her diet?
A: She makes time to cook and buy whole ingredients. Amber prefers to make her own food so that she can control what ingredients go in (mostly vegetables and lean protein). Amber reads food labels — and if she sees an ingredient she doesn’t recognize, she often leaves the item on the shelf. That might limit you in the snack aisle, but it will lead you to eat fewer processed foods.

Amber heard before and after / A weight loss inspiration

BEFORE



Here's a really good inspiration. So feel like running now.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Hello, is everyone out there happy? I'm not :(

I have been so busy with school. Life has really just been whole mess. I've been a mess. Everyday is a battle with myself just to step out the house. I swear to my face every time i have a glance of myself in a reflection. I can't take looking like this anymore. And yet I've not been doing anything but complaining. What's wrong with me? What's going on?

It's time to set everything right.

In details, I have been treating myself wrongly. Because of all the stress I'm feeling, I give in to everything I want, and even if i don't want it. Chocolates, chocolates, bread, cakes, muffin, pies, every bad food you can imagine. Someone that says he loves me, yet unknown if he meant it as a friend or romantically has been telling me I'm not fat and that I'm beautiful the way I am. I love him. And i trust him, but I can't exactly trust his words. He buys me food and treats me well, how am i suppose to say no to those things, even if it means getting fatter? I can talk to him for hours. Even through the whole night. And that makes me not workout as well. It's been going on for months. I have not told a single friend about this, about me and him. Why? It's complicated. I wish I have someone to share my thoughts with. I wish I could feel beautiful. I wish I could be me.





Friday, January 6, 2012

Quote #1


Words of Wisdom from the beautiful Amber Heard

On Keeping A Fitness Routine:
If a routine is broken, it’s easy to backslide into laziness. So keep telling yourself, I want this. Because after you get into a routine, your body will want it. “Once you start working out, you feel better and it becomes something you make time to do,” says Amber. Many women hit the gym to look better, but that can’t be your only motivation. Otherwise, you’ll feel discouraged when you don’t see results fast enough. “It’s about feeling healthy,” says Amber. And that’s something that happens the minute you make a positive change.