I'm so ashamed to say that things have not been going so well. Really badly actually. And I'm pretty upset and disappointed in myself right now. I really don't understand how is it possible, that I was doing so well for 5 months. And then now it's just going so SHITTIFYINGLY(yes, there is no such word). I've gained. And I notice it. It's pretty obvious. I'm bigger.
Today I weighed myself and I am 123.9 lbs (56.3 kg). I feel like crap, trust me. I'm not going to change my CW on the top of my page, cos I believe this is only going to be temporary. I wanna show my progress to people out there. But there really hasn't been any positive progression. Give me a week. Just so I can get back all the "ions" I need. Meaning; inspiration, motivation, determination.
This period has been, and still is, really hard. But If I can overcome this major setback. I'm so sure that reaching my ultimate goal will be easy.
Does anyone believe in me, that I can do it?